In “Devaneios dos Amores Obsescados: Emoções que consumom a alma” (Daydreams of Obsessed Love: Emotions that Consume the Soul), writer and speaker Vagner Faustino Fernandes revisits his most memorable romantic ties to explore, with sensitivity and emotional honesty, the impact of love on the construction of identity and the search for balance between affection and individuality. The work, which begins with the memory of a breathtaking first love and explores a journey of pain, maturity, and healing, invites the reader to see relationships—even the most challenging ones—as opportunities for self-discovery and strengthening self-love.
Your book begins with the memory of a ravishing first love. As was the process of transform a memory so intimate in literature? There was Was there ever a time when writing hurt more than it relieved?
It was a natural process for me to transform my memoir into literature, especially since, regarding the female characters in the story, I don’t mention them personally (by name), taking care to preserve their anonymity. The book is divided into four parts: the first part deals with unrequited first love; the second part deals with the most important girlfriend I’ve ever had; the third part deals with a moment of seclusion emotional post-termination of affair; and the fourth part he speaks of second love no matched. For me, the second part of the book, referring to the girlfriend, was a very uncomfortable writing process, not because it reminded me of her per se, but because it was completely related to the attitudes what you family members (father, mother and uncles her) had with me, which were very unpleasant and repressive.
The work takes a journey from pain to reconstruction. At what point do you realized what these experiences loving could, of fact, to be maturation and healing material not only for you, but also for the reader?
THE leave of moment in what I found what the writing of this book there was me cured of my emotional ghosts and emotional, I realized that if this same writing was the object of reading to others people, that it could help them in one process of understanding and acceptance of your frustrations and disappointments to start over you your paths.
THE title “Daydreams of the Loves Obsessed” suggests intensity and, to the same time, reflection. As you deals with that duality between passion and lucidity in your relationships and in your writing?
The intensity of our experiences is a big fuel to we can continue living, but lucidity is essential so that we don’t exceed our limits. It protects us from emotional deprivation and dependence. In my book, I try to show this process, where lucidity search overlap to slavery moved put attitudes passionate. For example, in the passage that talks about dating, I noticed that the lack of boundaries in relationships me deprived of to maintain my individuality, which exemplifies good that fight between passion and lucidity, reflecting you ‘daydreams’ what I mentioned node title.
You states what “the time and one intervention divine”. In which moments of yours trajectory loving that ‘intervention’ more you surprised or transformed you ?
When I arrive the fourth part of book, one final moment significant, I understand that finally I love one person what me he does good and what provoked large changes in me to far away of four years (of 2019 the 2023). That relationship me he taught what the life must to be lived of form light, docile and serene. That phase specific from the my life he was a true intervention of time, transforming my vision on the love and to the relations.
Very if he speaks on the self-love, but nor always and easy recognize it after troubled relationships. What ways have you found to rebuild your individuality without losing the desire to love again?Same in quite the both Suffering, when you try for the first time self-love, that brings one feeling of completeness so big put within yes what becomes natural to love someone again, even though you have if closed for the life and for the interaction human of one form general put years. To the love the yes same, we have the perception exact of when we are loving somebody of true or if that no raisin of a passing enchantment. Self-love, at bottom, is the whole essence of individuality, why and for the self-love what we realized what us same we are our biggest priority in life.
Your book can also be seen as a mirror for readers who have ever felt emotionally consumed by someone. What kind of feedback or identification have you received since its release?
Yes, with certainty absolute, mainly for the identification what the public he has with the story of the book, as if, in words, through sequential sentences and paragraphs, I transmitted the they the understanding of your own sensations within of variations of circumstances, environments and epochs distinct from your lives.
You he has one history striking of participation in events literary and important awards. How does this recognition impact your view of the responsibility of writing about such sensitive topics?
To participate of anthologies and events literary, such as to the Biennials, me showed that there is a big one interest of public in themes of health emotional. That experience reinforced my responsibility in address these questions in my writings of an uncoupled form from the slope from the health mental. Put example, to the to receive feedback positive of readers at events, I realize the importance of discussing emotions and its implications. I believe what, with the time, the resistance of market literary the themes psycho-emotional will decrease, and that and the motivation that me he takes the continue participating of awards and events.
If you could to leave one unique phrase as legacy emotional of book, something that the reader would take with them after the last page, what would it be?
I leave as quote the phrase of last paragraph of chapter “THE Called”, which says: “You are the your greatest support; in the However, if you lose the to be axis, could become your own downfall.” The book all and about not lose the axle and the strength to achieve this; and solidify the your self-love and, put consequence, your individuality.
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